I took the past few days off to think about a few things. One of my self-published author friends told me, “What do you want at the end of the day? Whatever that is, it’s your brand. There are no rules. It’s just going to be your unique and individual thumbprint in the publishing industry.”
I thought about it a long and hard. Romance? Horror? Young Adult? Fiction? Crime thrillers? Thriller? Psychological horror? Suspense?
You can see where I’m going.
My career as a ghostwriter centered around romance and erotica. Sometimes 10ks. Other times, it was 80ks. It varied depending on the client, but they all had one thing in common– to profit. It’s not a secret that some “authors” on the Amazon best seller list push out 4-5 10ks a week through a group of ghostwriters quickly because it keeps them high on the list, but it’s quick and easy money to them. I’ll go into my own personal experiences with all of that at a later date…
We all dream of maybe making a couple bucks off our writing. We have families and lives to financially support. The problem that I noticed was that some of these clients didn’t seem to really want to take the time to construct thoughtful novels. They wanted money quick and fast. I missed deadlines all the time because I wanted to put more into it than what they wanted. I felt burnt out trying to meet their expectations.
Maybe that’s why I can’t write a romance anymore? It’s a matter of confidence. When you spend five years of your life writing professionally for others, putting your own needs aside, you end up drained.
So, I did some reflecting. I pulled out a few things that I’ve drafted in the past. I sat down and read through Gillian Flynn’s Sharp Objects. I scanned my bookshelves as well. It hit me right there and then: Psychological Suspense.
I’ve always gravitated around it. Liane Moriarty novels anyone? Stephen King? I have been devouring their books recently.
I think I’ve found exactly what I want at the end of the day.
With love,
H.C.
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